Tonight I took a little trip down memory lane with a few friends from my not-so-distant-in-my-mind past. You know how a song can throw you into a memory like nobody’s business? Well, imagine what an entire soundtrack performed live can do. That was tonight and it was emotional and electric for me.
Anyone who really knows me knows what an important part theater, more specifically, Stageside Desserts, played in my teenage years. It was a game changer for me. And being in a theater tonight, with a few of those who were a part of SD with me, made me realize how much I miss it. The stage. The lights. The energy. But more than any of that the people. There’s just something about theater people. If you don’t have a theater friend, you should definitely find one, because they are like crack. One hit and you’re hooked because theater people are amazing. They are alive and kicking.
The last time I was on stage was about 19 years ago in Charleston, South Carolina. I was M’Lynn inĀ Steel Magnolias. It was my first non-musical and I loved it. I loved being someone else for a short time. I loved slipping away just a little bit, losing myself and exploring a life that wasn’t mine. I proved to myself that I could do it, that I didn’t need a song to express myself. I could memorize words, make them my own and make everyone else believe that I was that person. It was exhilarating.
If I could start over, I would pursue acting. I didn’t realize at the time that it was even an option, so instead, I chose written words. My stage is the blank page – my makeup adjectives and adverbs, my props words. And I love that. I love my words, always have, but I miss making my words jump from the page.
My word for the year is “adventure”, and after tonight I’m thinking maybe theater should be part of my year of adventure. Maybe it’s time to lose myself all over again, in order to find the part of me that has been missing for way too long.